So I Didn’t “Win”

I received word back from Toastmasters International Headquarters, “Thank you for participating in the 2025 quarterfinals. We applaud the hard work and dedication you demonstrated while competing in the International Speech Contest…

The two winning contestants for Contest 13 are listed below, in no particular order.”

Winner: Not Shaneice Miller Thomas

Winner: Not Shaneice Miller Thomas

As I read the results, I had mixed emotions. Disappointment, relief, sadness, peace, confusion, dismay.

Did I lose or did I not win?

Depends on who you ask. To the contestants I surpassed at the club, area, division, district, and quarterfinal levels, I didn’t lose.

To those going to the semifinals and finals, I didn’t win.

How we define winning and losing can determine how we experience “success.” That word means different things to different people.

After processing the email, my mentor was the first person I notified and she immediately knew that I needed her support. We met up for lunch and had a very sobering conversation about God’s grace and God’s will.

I mentioned to her that “winning” and bearing the title of World Champion of Public Speaking® gives people an easier route to success as a speaker.

She said, “Jesus didn’t have it easy.” I agreed.

I am learning to accept the mantle of suffering and surrender that comes along with the life of a believer.

It is not a life of misery as some may identify with the word suffering; it is a life of mission.

When Jesus died on the cross, those watching thought He lost. But what looks like a loss to the world is always a win, when you follow God’s plan.

So I didn’t win the final title. But I said, when I began this speaking contest journey that I wanted a reward, not an award.

Awards come from people; they recognize your achievements. Rewards come from God who recognizes your obedience.

I did what He told me to do.

After each round of competition people came up to me to share how they could relate to my message about childhood trauma.

While scrolling on Facebook, I saw this scripture posted on a friend’s page…

“...Then you will know that I am the Lord; those who hope in me will not be disappointed.” Isaiah 49:23

I am no longer disappointed. I know I am on to the next destination.